Hospital

well..
I guess I can say I'm lucky.
I went to the hospital on friday,
though it's not like any of you care.
They wanted me to stay as an inpatient.
They feel I'm going to hurt myself.
There are times in my head where I agree with them.
They gave me a COPS formwhich is basically,
I have to be seen by a psychiatristwithin 5 days of being discharged.
I need help.

I was stuck at that place
for 5 fucking hours,
until midnight.
My poor parents did all of this for me.
I feel so horrible.
Nicholas too,
he cameand sat holding my hand the entire time
telling me everything was going to be alright.
I love him so much.

I don't know what to do.
Maybe I should of stayed.
Maybe it would have been better for me.

I really want to..

Ciao