The End is Near

what the fuck.
Okay, so huge rant coming on,
and it's all about you motherfuckers.
I'm not even going to space.

Come on guys, what happened between august and december? I mean, we all used to be so close? Whats pushing us all away? And why are half of you acting like I'm some lowly pile of shit? I can say right now, my confidence level may be shit, but i am most certainly NOT shit. I happen to be a great friend, at least I think so, and I'm sorry the month my dad almost fucking RUINED MY FAMILY, I got a little reserved. but what did you guys do? Oh i know, NOTHING. So sorry if some of my texts were short, I had alot on my mind, and I kind of still do. There's a lot of shit going on in my life right now, and you want to know the people that actually have BOTHERED to help me since school started? Only like 4 fucking people. and you know what? FUCK YOU. these are for different people:

- I'm not judgmental, you never bothered to heal our friendship, all the while I worked my ass off with my dad in rehab, my grades slipping, and my therapist telling me I'm crazy. You know what you did? Fucking shit, thats what you did, you stod by and talked about me behind my back to my BEST FRIEND. You're a little bitch, and I regret ever trying to stay friends with you. I hope you get fucking bitched slapped.

- I know we haven't been talking as much, but i only stopped talking to you, BECAUSE YOU TALK TO ME LIKE I'M AN IDIOT. So what if I'm not in AP classes like you, or I don't have a shitload of cash like you, and my parents don't give me what I want. I wanted to stay friends with you, because I missed you. But everytime we DID talk, it'd be you talking down to me, like I was inferior to you. I got sick of it. I'll talk to you whe you start treating me fairly.

- Your fucking girlfriend is fucking with you, and literally fucking you. I'm so sick of it, i really am. we were SO close until you met her, and she seemed like a real sweetheart at first, but then you slowely started to change, and now you just treat me like shit. you're treating EVERYONE like shit. Just because you have sex all the time, doesn't give you the right to be an asshole. This girl is fucking with you. I miss you, I want my fucking best friend back.

- I love you to death, and I've been worrying about you so much lately, but you tell my boyfriend more than you tell me, and you say I'm your best friend and that you hate him. I'm sorry, but I see no logic in that. I may not give the ebst advice o you, but that's because We're always in the SAME situation. I can only listen, and try my best. also, you've GOT to stop talking down to me, it's starting to make me want to hit you.

Whats wrong guys? I know we all change, but seriously? You're all being so horrible to me, and other people, you need to see past it. We all used to get along, hang out and laugh, now I just want to hit all of you. I may not be all there sometimes, but I'm always open to listening to every one of you. Sure I may be getting different friends, and my personality is changing, but so is yours, we're human, we do that. Shit happens man. Life happens more, okay? I'm sorry, but everyone is being really weird lately, not just the people above.

Whats wrong with everyone?
Highschool can't be fucking us up this much.

Ciao.