It's all hell from here.

My dad's in rehab
as an in-patient
He lied to the workers and said his family needed him
and he got kicked out
He's travelling to different hospitals
looking to be detoxed and put into another rehab.

I'm glad he's getting help,
but my family is falling apart
All because he started drinking again
after almost 20 years sobriety.

My mum screamed at me today
and hit my arm
Leaving a nice bruise on it
all while on the phone with my sister.
Sometimes I really jsut want to say "fuck you"
and walk out of the house
and down the street
and start a new life.

Either I think that or
"I really want a cigarette, too bad I don't smoke"


I hate this hosue more and more.
I need an escape.