The worst is over

Oh goodness.
It's family bonding time!

Another nice day for the family.
My one year with Nicholas
has come and gone
his birthday is tomorrow
and I haven't found him a present!
:O
O the drama.

I think I might get him this awesome
TMNT Sports jacket.
that'd make him happy.
Now I just need to find $50.

This post will be relatively short,
I'm on my father's laptop.
Nothing really new,
so this'll be a bit drab too.

School is slowly coming to an end,
Regents growing closer
OMY.
I don't want to fail
I've been studying like a madman.
well,
if madmen studied.
Ha.


Time to go watch my documentary.

Ciao.

I don't know how...

Hello.
I'm back.
I had a bad week.
which I don't feel like getting into
for I'll have a tussle with my brain again.
And we don't need Lizzy getting into that.

I had a major breakdown today
Sobbing, Choking, screaming, the works.
I almost killed myself.

I know, it's terrible.
Nicholas Is making me sit down
with my parents tomorrow
and tell them that I need help.

I'm feeling better,
I wrote a poem for the boy that saved me.

I don't know how to think.
I don't know how to speak.
I don't know how to breathe
or even how to blink.

I don't know how to laugh or cry
or lie in the grass and stare at the sky.
But there is one thing I know how to do
It's that I know how to love you.

I love you Nicholas,
my savior.

Ciao.

Missed Medcations and Pessmisms.

I'm losing my mind.
I don't know what to do anymore.

I'm breaking down.